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Something that helps..

Hi everyone x 

Probably non of you really know what I am suffering from, but that's okay. I have social anxiety disorder. "It is an emotion discomfort or a fear when a person is in a social interaction that involves a concern of being judged." It's difficult to cope with a lot of stress in public. I have some bad memories that involved anxiety. I don't like going to places with lots of people. That is why I am not going to shops a lot. Going down the street without any make-up on is terrible. I feel like everyone is looking at me, everyone is talking about me, pointing at me and even sometimes I have thoughts that make me freak out so badly. I am usually eating at home. It has to be something very, VERY special to go out for a meal, but when it happens I hate being there. I don't even like ordering food just, because I think that others are judging me. Like they are think that I am fat and not worth. Not always too good things. I don't know why I am sharing it with you, but I feel like you, all of you will understand me more then others.
Now, I have a question to all that people that have the same disorder what me. What are the ways I can help myself ? Is there any ways I can stop worring, shaking ?
Lots of love x

Kornelia